“This Is It. Don’t Get Scared Now”

If we’re going to be keeping it real with each other, you should know that I almost backed out of this Write-31-Days challenge roughly fourteen times before it even began. I seriously considered tucking my proverbial little tail between my legs and skulking away in shame. I mean, I’m not proud, but it is what it is. This whole thing terrifies me. I’m probably not supposed to admit that, but whatever. I’m a blurter, it can’t be helped. In fact, the only thing that really kept me from backing out of this whole thing and spending all of October binge-watching Scandal instead, was the fact that I immediately blurted out on the internet that I signed up for it in the first place. So there it was, out there for the whole world to see, holding me accountable to actually DO THE THING, while I spent the next ten days spazzing out and waking each night in a cold sweat from a recurring nightmare about missed link ups and unexceptional writing full of jokes that no one got.

That s*** is terrifying.

The way I see it, this is going to go one of two ways. It’ll either be a wonderful, challenging, exciting way to push myself and grow as a writer and I’ll walk away at the end of 31 days with my confidence buoyed and my head held high…or it’ll just be really really bad.

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The kind of bad that makes you eat way too much chocolate peanut butter ice cream and rue the day you said “Great idea! Where do I sign?” like the optimist that you used to be.

We’ve been through a lot together, guys. There was that time we didn’t speak for two whole weeks when Country music forced us to do things against our will almost singlehandedly breaking us up. Then there was that whole pregnancy scare. But you’re still here. You’re letting me be me. And I love you for it.

So I guess this is the part where we really get down to the nitty-gritty. This is the part where we lock ourselves in a room and we don’t leave until we’ve asked all the questions and said all of the things and at the end of it we’ll either emerge stronger or….well, we’ll just emerge stronger, okay?

Oh, and hey. You’re the best.

Here we go.

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image* This is Day 1 of a 31 Day series on Keeping It Real. You can find all of the posts in this series here I hope you follow along and join the conversation! *

7 thoughts on ““This Is It. Don’t Get Scared Now”

  1. Michele Kearns

    Love, love, love this series! Thank you for reminding me to pick up chocolate peanut butter cup ice cream today at the grocery store. That is if I actually make it out of the house today. Oh wait, I have an appointment to get my hair chopped so I must get cleaned up and go.

    1. ambersalhus@msn.com

      Hey Jenn! This is from last year! I won’t be participating in the #write31days challenge this year. It’s such a fantastic experiment, but I will be focusing all that time and energy into other projects this year.

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